MASK

I am not happy to see all the faces!!!!

I really don't feel like smiling at all!! but wtf... the mask that i am wearing on does not allow me to do so!! I wish I could just leave that place immediately!! I wish someone is there to pull me away!! I wish I wish I wish.. !@#$%^&*()_+

Hate myself for being so fake!!

心情很烦 很复杂 很矛盾

美好的早晨就这样毁了

有人说：闭上你的乌鸦嘴，有风度点，不说话没人会当你是哑巴！！

我说：哎哟，表酱啦，就让人发表下下嘛 ^^ 反正日子过得真无聊 :p

别人要怎么说是他们的事
我开心就好

谢谢大家一路来都疼疼梅梅,让梅梅撒娇哦 ^^
谢谢 bebe, koko, wifey, papi mami, housemates, meng meng, pei li, sum sum, teng teng, yi yi, ru ru, and many many many more.. muakzzz

I HEART YOU

wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf!!!!!!

why like tat one.....

0.00 for significant (2-tailed)!!! ~~~~~~ meaning the hypothesis is not rejected!!

omg omg omg omg omg!!!

why is this happening to me!!!!!!!

原来

一言惊醒梦中人
原来，外表真的很重要！
无论哪行哪业，亮丽的外表绝对是加分的。
反之，还是乖乖呆在家别出去吓人吧。
无奈-ing

^^

开心也要过日子，不开心也要过日子，那为何不开开心心地过呢？

don worry, be happy!!

算是解决了吗？

事情总算告一段落了，他们应该已经往前跨了吧，我想。
以为一觉醒来就会没事的，但我似乎太高估我自己了。
从这事故中，我领悟了好多。外表看得见，内心触不到；甲乙丙丁，谁是谁非，谁又说得清呢？
给我点时间，我会慢慢熟悉这全新的一切的。

SNAKE!!

wtf wtf wtf
my house was intruded by snake again!!
YES, AGAIN!!!!

helppppppppp
anyone....... pls save me out from here!!!!!!

你听见了没？

终于把心底的话说出来了，别怀疑，我是很认真的。
下次请尽量别在我面前对她那么好，请多看着我多过留意她。
不是我不信任你，而是我对自己没信心。
我会妒嫉，我会受不了，我会放弃的。
我是当真的！

why is everyone treating me like SMALL KID???

i really don understand!! can you please tell me why???

perhaps only aple and tan got me right : i might look innocent, but i am totally NOT!!

arghhhhh

wats wrong with all the philosopherzzzzz!!

jia pa siu eng boh ming kia zo ar??? ( eat too full got ntg to do izzzit!!!)

folk psychology??!! rationality??!! concept of language??!!

walauuuuu.. siao liao lar!!!!!

去你他妈的烟！！

抽烟！！抽烟！！抽烟！！抽你他妈的烟！！

什么时候开始，你变得如此不自爱！！什么时候开始，你已烟不离手？为什么我都不懂你已犯上烟瘾？什么时候开始，我对你的信任已变得一文不值？为什么你总是一次又一次的骗我？一次又一次的让我失望？

我应该怎么办呢？一只眼开一只眼闭吗？还是放任你，让你中口腔癌，或肺癌，早早去见阎罗王呢？为什么你明知道烟的伤害力却还要惹上它呢？为什么你明知道我恨抽烟的人，你却偏偏的爱上烟呢？

我真的不了解烟的魅力有多大？抽烟真的能够解决一些吗？为什么我的话对别人的影响力那么大，而你却只把它当耳边风呢？有什么是解决不了的？为什么非得抽烟呢？谁能告诉我为什么！

爱情的无奈

发生了好多事，我快透不过气了，杀了我好吗？我是这么对你说的。虽然被你掐得不能呼吸了，但我一点都不挣扎。心里想着，能够死在你手里，是解脱，也是幸福。然而，你却突然放手了。

我间接害死了你最最最疼爱的沫沫，为什么你不责怪我呢？这样也许我会好过点的。我对你要求多多，为什么你总是迁就我，满足我呢？这样我越会变得不可理喻的！为什么我做错事你被责备你却还容忍着我呢？我不希望你忍无可忍而抛弃我啊！我从来都不知道在你朋友眼里你是可怜的，为什么你要忍气吞声，那么委屈呢？我会觉得我很可恶，我不是个好女友，而大家也都不会看好我们的！

你常羡慕我说我朋友很多，但你不知道吧，我也非常羡慕你的。至少你随时随地随便打电话给他们其中一个，你就可以出门了。而我呢?我空闲时朋友不见得也是。慢慢的，我只剩下你，我生活的中心只有你。难得你假期，我只想充分地依赖你，缠着你，霸着你，我一刻也不想离开你。因为这样你变成了得不到自由的人。有人说人生的路还很长，何必急着绑死他？但又有谁了解我的立场呢？一年十二个月，只有在假期期间我们才像男女朋友，我才能真正的感受到自己在恋爱。而现在假期又快结束了，可能要好几个星期才能见你一次了吧。谁又会可怜我呢？

人生本是烦恼的，再多想也没用。我好累，一切随缘吧。。。

心，被淘空了

这些年来对你的信任彻彻底底的崩溃了!
年纪轻轻的就赌球
瞒着我们赌了一个星期
才一个星期而已就欠了三千元巨债
走头无路了才向我求救
告诉我，我乖乖的弟弟跑去哪儿了

当你告诉我时，我的心凉了一半
为什么会这样呢？？
回头看看，对你的包容，处处维护你的我，做得正确吗？？
我做姐姐的真的很失败

感到庆幸的是你开口借钱的人是我不是大耳窿
不然到时的数据就不只这笔数目了
所谓不经一事，不长一智
希望你能吸取这次的教训，不要再执迷不悟了

memorable third year first sem

lots of thing happen during my third year first semester. Now, lets have a overall summary of it.
months ago, i bought two cute hamster from liew, which named after PaoPao and MoMo.

they look so so so cute right? ^^

PaoPao on the right, MoMo on the left.

believe me or not, its my first time owning a pet. Few close friends of mine and even Shyen thought that those pity baby gonna die very soon due to my torturous behavior. However, both of them are still alive, up until today. Hehe.. Its a wonderful experience watching them growing and getting fatter.

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around middle of the semester, Mei was notified to be Dean's list award and extra-curricular awards recipient. i was so happy, as that might be the one and only Dean's list award in my life. During the awards day, i feel glad to be accompanied by both my mum and dad. 爸爸妈妈，你们看见了吗？你们会为我而感到骄傲吗？

from the left: Mei, Nitia, Alpe, Sue. *thanks Prakash.

the only photo we took for the day. *thanks Leena.

not forget to mention, Shyen celebrated Mei's achievement. We had really great outing. thanks for treating me Mother of Pearl, thanks for buying me a new pair of white sandal, thanks for holding my hand wherever we go, and thanks for giving me a warm hugz. I love you.

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after watching "恋空", a Japanese love story, Mei fall in love in looking at the sky. One fine day, i decided to sort things out with him -my sadness, my disappointment, my hatred, my anger. And guess what, the sky had the same feeling as mine. look at the formation of the cloud, as if it wants to swallow the earth; look at the colour, so darn depressing. and yea.. finally.. I managed to have a open-hearted discussion and let go of all the negative feelings. i felt such a relief.

cloudy & windy day. *taken by brother's hp.

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as a student, one will never failed to complain bout assignmentssss!!
yeap, freaking lots of assignment for this pathetic short semester.
so stress, due to poor time management.
so stress, due to procrastination.
so stress, due to falling sick during the so pek cik semester.
hehe.. but its over now!!
Mei say yeah.. yeah.. yeah!!
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last day for the sem, i feel so depressed. 22/10/2008, my PaoPaoMoMo finally gave birth to at least 7 babies, but i don feel happy at all. PaoPaoMoMo turned into baby-eater-monster!!! i hate myself for not able to do anything but looking at the babies being eaten. i screamed, i got frighten, and i cried for the whole night. every time I close my eyes, i see PaoPao eating her own babies!! i couldn't do anything!! i feel so bad!! anyone, pls save the babies. sobsob.. Everyone been telling me that's animal nature. they eat their babies because they want to protect them. but hey, i really couldnt accept it. pls, take them away from me. i don wan to take care of them anymore. As for now, i really want you to be with me, to share my pain, to heal my broken heart; but you couldn't. luckily, I had Chew and Yin (cacing) comforting me all these while, I had liew visiting me and kt spend his time listen to me. thanks little angels. sorry to make you girls worried. Give me some time, again I will stand.

to my shyen

at this point of time, i desperately need you to be around.
but i know you're super stress too, so, i cannot burden you anymore

shyen, I'm so used to you for these 2 days
we fight, we hugz, we listen to each other
how i wish i don need to come back to cheras anymore

i miss you i miss you i miss you
sobsob

“打喷嚏" 九把刀著

不知从何时开始，我渐渐地被九把刀的作品所吸引
喜欢他天马行空却不失写实的创作
很享受种种情绪随着内容而被唤醒
很珍惜每个文字带给我的感触九把刀，干得好！！

花了六个小时，我终于在晚餐前把“打喷嚏”看完了
为什么要他死啦？那样的结局绝对不是我想要的！！呜呜
我哭得眼睛肿肿，鼻子红通通地，样子傻透了
也许最近变得感性些，请大家原谅我的失控的情绪

谈谈书里的名句
“你身边那人，也许不是你的真命天子，但他或许是你的专属超人。
你对他轻轻一笑，就会有一万个天使在他的笑容上飞舞著”
看了这句我感触很深啊

什么时候，你也是她的专属超人
为了逗她笑，为了不让她难过，你什么都能为她去做
可偏偏你不是她的真命天子

什么时候，我也是他的专属超人
时时为他着想，默默地陪在他身边，只求他过得比我好
可偏偏爱情却与我们擦肩而过

命运很爱作弄人吧
可这样也好，至少让我遇见了你
你是我的真命天子吗？我不知道
但我想成为你专属超人，把你的心给暖起来，给你最佳的保护!

final exam

i know i should be studying right now, but i refused to.
wats the point trying so hard, the result will be the same.

i never like final exam!!

its such a waste of time and energy!!!

uselessssssss

bad hair cut

sobsob..
mua don like my new hair style..
look so cacat...
ogui barber a!!

dear hair hair...
please grow quickly..
i cant wait for my next hair cut d!!!

sleep sleep sleep
then hair can grow grow grow
night people!!