What I want for Christmas?

Due to the side effect of selling grape for almost one week, I become very aimless + hopeless + brainless + heartless to do anything!!! arghhhhhh

Logging into my not-so-active blog, I decided to make some changes to it, and here's my not-so-nice-newly-edited template. Also, I hopped from blog to blog to get myself updated. However, it seems that only few of F.R.I.E.N.D updating their blog frequently.

After reading Cmate's blog , I am so inspired to write on this topic - All I want for Christmas is.....

All these while, I never thought of getting myself a Christmas gift for some reasons; 1)I am not Christian, 2) my family does not celebrate Christmas, 3)there's no snow in Malaysia, 4) I have no $$ to get one!!! But hey, 23 years had passed, life's getting uninteresting; can I wish for something, to mark a happy ending for year 2009? aikzz....

As for me, all I want for Christmas is a music box with ballerina dancing on the mirror stage. Why so? Lets find out together ^^

When I was a kid, I used to play with mum's. I remembered it was in pink, rectangle in shape, with precious moment's figurines for the outer cover, and mirror for the inner part. The body was separated to two parts; one side for storage while the other side was a clear mirror stage.

I could still remember how hard it was for me to twist the windup key, how excited I was when the music started, how eager I was to put the ballerina dancer on the mirror stage, and how happy I was observing the graceful dancer. Misses those time so much!!! sobsob...

Sorry mum, I guess I am the one who spoiled it. If I am not mistaken, I over-twisted the windup key so its broken, followed up by misplacing of the ballerina dancer, then accidentally unplugged the cover from the body, and its officially DEAD. Sad but true, the only thing left behind was the mirror.
* to shyen: yes, the one you are using rite now!!

Beside signifying my precious childhood moments, its also a form of compensation for the mistakes I made. So now you know I wish for a music box so much ^^

So what bout you? What do you want for Christmas?

最近越来越喜欢发呆了
想着从前的我们 想着自己的梦想 想着如何赚更多钱 想着要如何减肥
想着想着 想得自己都不晓得自己在想些什么了
想着向着 竟发起呆来




心理学家说这是件好事：
上海市心理学会理事冯永熙表示，发呆是一种专注的无意识。它可以帮助人们减轻疲劳，对大脑来说，是很好的休息。处在这种状态下的人们会突然不愿意思考，使自己停滞在一个安 静的氛围里，忘记一切。会发呆的人，觉得发呆是一种享受，因为发呆的时候可以放开所有，不再有烦恼和忧愁，整个空间都属于自己的。因此，在发呆的时候，人 是轻松、快乐的。

基本上，我是很认同以上所说的。然而，发呆的环境非常重要哦! 可以选择到某个风景秀丽的地方、 海边、 客人稀少的咖啡厅、或自己的房间也行。但可万万别像我这样，笨笨地在火车里发呆哦。

今天在火车上因发呆而下错站，下到一个我不曾到过的地方，被蚊虫折磨了三十分钟，回到家时已经筋疲力尽了。衰呀！

不过值得庆幸的是，我还来得及赶上与弟妹们的 sushi king 聚会。所有寿司只是2令吉，可想而知人潮是多么地拥挤咯，还好只排了一会儿队便轮到我们了。坐在靠寿司师傅的位子真的很不错!!所有新来的寿司都是第一时间到手的哦。怎么办到的？？嘻嘻。。只要给他们一个甜甜的笑就行了。至少我就是这样为大家夺得最新鲜出炉的寿司。总而言之，工作人员的招待很好，食物也不错新鲜，大家都吃得很尽兴，真的好满足！！ ^^



现在肚子饱饱的梅梅要睡觉去了。

愿大家快乐、安康

SNAKE

omg... it has been so long since my last nightmare!!
this time round, i dream of me bitten by a yellow-bellied black snake!!! WTF WTF WTF!!!

According to dream interpretation by Dream Moods (2009), to see a snake or be bitten by one in dream, signifies hidden fears and worries that are threatening me. The dream may be alerting me to something in my waking life that i am not aware of or that has not yet surfaced. Alternatively, the snake may be seen as phallic and thus symbolize temptation, dangerous and forbidden sexuality. If i am to afraid of the snake, then it signifies my fears of sex, intimacy or commitment. The snake may also refer to a person around me who is callous, ruthless, and can't be trusted. As a positive symbol, snakes represent healing, transformation, knowledge and wisdom. It is indicative of self-renewal and positive changes.

So some might be asking, is the interpretation accurate? And i would definitely answer yes for this time round. Its so near to Sept 1, yet, i still don have any idea what to do for my internship. kinda nervous now, but guess wat, i am still lazying around. haiz.

As for the closing for today, let me show you a picture of snake!! omfg!! i hate snake!!! not even a cute one!!!!!

像断了线的风筝一样

风筝 飞远了
人们 还站在原地

失去的，永远都要不回来

读小说不是不切实际
而是填补心灵的需要

从没想要有个梦幻的恋爱故事是骗人的
毕竟我看待浪漫比任何人来得重要

我分得清什么是现实什么是虚构
我不强求小说的一切发生在我身上
但我渴望与我的另一半创造属于我们的罗曼史！

也许，这变成了恋爱的负担。

原来

一言惊醒梦中人
原来，外表真的很重要！
无论哪行哪业，亮丽的外表绝对是加分的。
反之，还是乖乖呆在家别出去吓人吧。
无奈-ing

^^

开心也要过日子，不开心也要过日子，那为何不开开心心地过呢？

don worry, be happy!!

没有如果

回来Cheras的路上听到了这首歌，深深地被吸引着。

曲名：没有如果

歌手：梁静茹

专辑：静茹&情歌 - 别再为他流泪

作词: 严爵
作曲: 严爵

如果我说 爱我没有如果
错过就过 你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱

如果我说 爱我没有如果
真的爱我 就放手一搏
还想什么 还怕什么
快牵起我的手

有人说
世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前 你却不知道我爱你

我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到 不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天

如果我说 爱我没有如果
错过就过 你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱

如果我说 爱我没有如果
真的爱我 就放手一搏
还想什么 还怕什么
快牵起我的手

如果 如果 如果 如果 如果
最后变成如果 我也不能接受
错过 错过 错过 错过 错过
我比你更难过 不会一错再错

我常说

如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住

那世界末日已来到 不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天

别怕太快乐 (别怕太快乐) 别怕失去我~~

如果我说 爱我没有如果

错过就过 你是不是会难过

若如果拿来当借口

那是不是有一点弱

如果我说 爱我没有如果

真的爱我 就放手一搏

还想什么 还怕什么

快牵起我的手

快牵起我的手

如果我说 爱我没有如果

错过就过 你是不是会难过

若如果拿来当借口

那是不是有一点弱

如果我说 爱我没有如果

真的爱我 就放手一搏

还想什么 还怕什么
快牵起我的手

如果我说 爱我没有如果

错过就过 你是不是会难过

若如果拿来当借口

那是不是有一点弱

如果我说 爱我没有如果

真的爱我 就放手一搏

还想什么 还怕什么

快牵起我的手

如果我说 爱我没有如果

错过就过 你是不是会难过

若如果拿来当借口

那是不是有一点弱

如果我说 爱我没有如果

真的爱我 就放手一搏

还想什么 还怕什么

快牵起我的手

如果我说 爱我没有如果

好快

转眼间，我好像就快毕业了。毕业了要干什么呢？好问题。。我不知道。。
昨天晚餐时爸爸告诉我，teacher sharon 和婆婆都想我继续在他们那帮忙教小孩。我只是很敷衍的答了句就转开了话题。
我喜欢那个工作环境，但老实说，我不想待在吧生工作。我不想天天都呆在家里，我响往比较自由的天空。
Gwen 说的有道理，工作是我唯一可以独自一人在外生活的借口。
不过以常常病倒的我而言，我适合远离温暖的家一个人生活吗？就连小孩子生病我都会一起病倒，一个人出去闯会有问题吗？烦啊!!

爱情的无奈

发生了好多事，我快透不过气了，杀了我好吗？我是这么对你说的。虽然被你掐得不能呼吸了，但我一点都不挣扎。心里想着，能够死在你手里，是解脱，也是幸福。然而，你却突然放手了。

我间接害死了你最最最疼爱的沫沫，为什么你不责怪我呢？这样也许我会好过点的。我对你要求多多，为什么你总是迁就我，满足我呢？这样我越会变得不可理喻的！为什么我做错事你被责备你却还容忍着我呢？我不希望你忍无可忍而抛弃我啊！我从来都不知道在你朋友眼里你是可怜的，为什么你要忍气吞声，那么委屈呢？我会觉得我很可恶，我不是个好女友，而大家也都不会看好我们的！

你常羡慕我说我朋友很多，但你不知道吧，我也非常羡慕你的。至少你随时随地随便打电话给他们其中一个，你就可以出门了。而我呢?我空闲时朋友不见得也是。慢慢的，我只剩下你，我生活的中心只有你。难得你假期，我只想充分地依赖你，缠着你，霸着你，我一刻也不想离开你。因为这样你变成了得不到自由的人。有人说人生的路还很长，何必急着绑死他？但又有谁了解我的立场呢？一年十二个月，只有在假期期间我们才像男女朋友，我才能真正的感受到自己在恋爱。而现在假期又快结束了，可能要好几个星期才能见你一次了吧。谁又会可怜我呢？

人生本是烦恼的，再多想也没用。我好累，一切随缘吧。。。

“打喷嚏" 九把刀著

不知从何时开始，我渐渐地被九把刀的作品所吸引
喜欢他天马行空却不失写实的创作
很享受种种情绪随着内容而被唤醒
很珍惜每个文字带给我的感触九把刀，干得好！！

花了六个小时，我终于在晚餐前把“打喷嚏”看完了
为什么要他死啦？那样的结局绝对不是我想要的！！呜呜
我哭得眼睛肿肿，鼻子红通通地，样子傻透了
也许最近变得感性些，请大家原谅我的失控的情绪

谈谈书里的名句
“你身边那人，也许不是你的真命天子，但他或许是你的专属超人。
你对他轻轻一笑，就会有一万个天使在他的笑容上飞舞著”
看了这句我感触很深啊

什么时候，你也是她的专属超人
为了逗她笑，为了不让她难过，你什么都能为她去做
可偏偏你不是她的真命天子

什么时候，我也是他的专属超人
时时为他着想，默默地陪在他身边，只求他过得比我好
可偏偏爱情却与我们擦肩而过

命运很爱作弄人吧
可这样也好，至少让我遇见了你
你是我的真命天子吗？我不知道
但我想成为你专属超人，把你的心给暖起来，给你最佳的保护!

officially 22!!

mei mei had a surprising & wonderful & memorable birthday this year ^^ happy happy!!

firstly, i would like to thank my housemates for giving me a 'roller-coaster-like' birthday celebration. To know more bout the details, just click on the photo below. Thanks guys. Love you all so much!!



next, i would like to thank my beloved boyfriend for giving me a memorable birthday celebration. thanks for driving all the way from klang to celebrate with me, thanks for bringing me my favourite apple strudel, thanks for everything you did! I love you! mucks~



not to forget, my wives!! thanks for giving me a wonderful birthday celebration. although i don't like Korean food, but with you girls company, those cuisines turn up to be so delicious!! yum yum.. and thanks for the birthday present! i almost drop my tears when i received them. thanks for pampering me with my favourite pikachu!! the married gang rocks!!




ohya.. ohya... for our dessert, we had durian and mangosteen!! hehe.. BUT after that, all of us got unwell. sienzz @.@"



as for my birthday cake, i had a Mexican pandan bun and a super rich chocolate cake from my housemate, and also a slice of chocolate cake from my wives. LOVE it ^^



tada!! showing off my birthday present from housemate, shyen, and wives!! so sweet of you girls and boys.. thanks so much ^^ mucks..



thanks everyone for sayang me so much. very touched o!!
i'll never forget bout the moment we shared..
once again... THANKS~~

happy weekend!!

~星期六~



很小很小的时候，我学会了折星星。

一边折星星，一边许愿，一边听着喜欢的旋律，是我最爱的休闲活动！

如果你问我；“折了那么多星星，许了那么多愿，那愿望成真了吗？？”

抱歉哦，这个问题我不方便回答，因为我只为心爱的人（其中包括菱珊，秀丽，万隆，国忠，永贤）折星星，从没为自己折过耶 ^^

不过呢，最近很需要被爱，所以从国忠那儿偷了罐‘天天有爱’的星星回来！

所谓的爱呢有父母的爱啦，弟弟妹妹的爱啦，宝贝贤贤的爱啦，干哥哥妹妹们的爱啦，老婆们的爱啦，还有当然少不了朋友们的爱！

最近压力好大，好希望大家都能爱我点，别吝啬你们的抱抱，好好疼我，好吗？？

哎，不过呢，社会是现实的，大家都有自己的烦恼，大家都泥菩萨过江，自身难保！

雪梅啊雪梅，看开点吧，撇开心怀，你一定会过的更好的。

加油加油加油 ^^

~星期日~ 今天是母亲节，愿天下妈妈母亲节快乐！



妈咪，谢谢你准备了丰富的火锅，好好吃哦！！

喜欢我们买给你的水晶项链吗？
虽然你嘴里一直说我们浪费钱，但你甜甜的笑容出卖你了哦！是不是觉得很窝心啊？嘻嘻 ^^
希望你会喜欢！么么

除了买份礼物给妈咪，我也买了份礼物奖赏自己哦！
tada*** BUNCHO 的 48 彩色蜡笔！！

低落的心情需要点兴奋剂，五颜六色的蜡笔正合我意 ^^

就如这些色彩般，有些亮，有些暗，人生不过如此。
意气风发时要好好珍惜
低如潮水时也别气馁
谁也无法掌控下一秒将发生的事
调整好心态，做好万分的准备，我们冲吧！

this is interesting :p

women as explained by engineers

the worst experience i ever had!!

anyone fainted before?
i do!! few times.. but yesterday was the scariest one!!
i fainted in ktm
do forgive me to write de experience in chinese,
coz its the best way to express my feeling

到了吧生站时， 脚突然抽筋， 空气变得好希薄
眼前的一切渐渐模糊了
耳朵也失去了作用
第一个念头就是打电话回家
一边呻吟着：“妈妈！！我好晕！！快点来！！快点来!!我不行了！！我快晕倒了！！”
妈妈在另一头说些什么我都不清楚了，只知道他急坏了

一瞬间，所有画面从橙色，变成暗红色，变黑了
我知道我不行了！！我不要在火车里晕倒啊！！
脑袋里闪过你的画面。。你笑笑的样子。。
我还不能离开你啊！！我不要！！

拼命咬我的手，出力的咬着，好让自己保持一分钟清醒也好
我告诉自己我不可以就这样倒下去！！
再多一站，我就可以看到爸爸了

咬着咬着，画面渐渐恢复了
但所有事物还是模糊的。。一点一点红红的。。
就在此时，我的站到了
赶紧拖着我的身体下车，在一旁等待家人
谢谢我的守护天使，谢谢你把我安全的送回家

good afternoon people

i have so so so MUCH thing to blog
however, all de photo is not with me now...
sobsob...
promise will update soon k
just bare with me o ^^ 

just to tell u guys
mei mei feel very happy nowadays
ever since moving to the new house
everything changed to be bettter
thanks for my lovely housemate for cheering me up
thanks for my bebe max for loving me
thanks daddy for loving mummy tooo

laughter is the language of the world
i m totally agree bout tat
i laugh alot these days
small thing big thing watching anime oso can laugh
n i enjoy laughing so much

kean hao: keep on laughing will make people think that u are crazy!! 
mei: i don mind... i used to be crazy one..

yeahh... so do u agree with me??
if u do... practice to have a cheerful mindset ya..
then u can laugh like me
always and all the time

missing my bebe max again
n missing my long hair tooo

wohoooo

SURPRISE!!!
another update after long long while

fucking stress for pass few days
assignment, final exam, friendship, finalcial...
argghhhh
poor mei mei.. didnt get to sleep for 3 days u know!!!

FINALLY
I m DONE with my assignment
wat is love? duhhh~~~
I m DONE with my household chores
room & car porch.. now so clean.. hehe ^^
I m DONE with my DEBT
no worry.. didnt pinjam from ah long la.. just get to sleep gau gau!!

hahahahah... i  feel so relieved now!!!
hAPpy   Happi3   H3pP1E   HAPPY

after handing in de assignment, i get myself a piece of cake from secret recipe

a piece of moist chocolate cake as the reward
but ho... it doesnt taste nice la...
so regret.. should buy chocoalte indulgence!!

ohya.. for those who know wei kiat..
he came my house to study..
and good news is: He got girl friend d..
so happy for him!!

after he went home, i get a chance to take a little nap before dinner
u know wat, my housemates were so sweet
they know i m tired sialzz.. so they didnt wake me up to help up
they busy alll the way to prepare speghetti so that i can take a longer nap
awwww.. so sweett!!

thanks to my housemate: shanna, mei & mei yin for de home made speghetti ya ^^

around 12 something, all of us went out for mamak..
we chat.. we eat.. n we scream!!
y?? because we saw cockroaches and rats running over!!
"ahhhhhh!!"
that was so funny..
hahhaha... then we laugh all the way home..

and guess wat..
i sleep until 1pm today.. 
OMG.. but...
i m satisfied!!

mei yin & zi yu (hang fok couple), mei (de girl next room), and mei (me) went to a vegi restaurant for breakfast n lunch
i had seeweed fried rice and cup of chrysanthemum

very healthy rite... hehe ^^
but de portion quite small la.. not fillling at all until i finish my drink :p

ohya.. one important message to everyone
proudly present to u..

my lovely housemates!!!
1st row from the left: GUANG, ZI YU, MEI
2nd row from the left: MEI YIN, ME, SHANNA
ohya ohya, another fellow 
JOHSUA (not in de photo, not holding the camera either)
i m really glad to be part of the family!!
muakz... hugz....

now.. i miss my bebe max so much!!

don lau gai la...
i love u!! i love u!! i love u!!

da di da

fucking moody today
it seems very obvious that everyone know bout it
did i show it on my face
da di da da di da da di da

stressor: early morning d cant make phone call.. y??? didnt settle phone bill lo...
arggghhhhhhhh

after class fast fast go home take money n pay for de bill...
phewwww.... at last.... i m able to listen to bebe's charming voice d...
miss you so much!!
 
then isa borrow me his mo siang id...
de character was so darn geng man!!
win alot while pk with ppl..
YET.. still very boring la...
apa boleh buat???

main GE lo..
up 2 level in 3 hours time....
proud of myself ler... hahahhaha...
then had Kissy, Happy, Cutie Ling Long put on new clothes...
hmmm... they look very nice now...

 i still feel very sienzzzz now ar....
o eo eo eo eo
n a little bit hungry tim...
should i eat or should i not??
don wan think so much d...
go sleep better...
but hor...
i wash my blanket tis evening...
still haven dry o..
sei fo lo @@